Page of Pentacles, 4 of Swords, 3 of Swords & The Hanged Man — A Tarot Check-In

Lately, I’ve been feeling this undeniable pull—like I’m standing at the edge of something new, but I don’t quite have the clarity to leap. So, I pulled some cards. Just four. And they landed with a quiet kind of thunder:

Page of Pentacles. Four of Swords. Three of Swords.
And peeking from the back of the deck like a whisper impossible to ignore: The Hanged Man.

Page of Pentacles: Where It All Begins

There’s a part of me that’s eager. Curious. Ready to start again—maybe in a small way, but it still counts. The Page of Pentacles reminds me that I don’t have to have it all figured out to begin. I just have to be willing to learn. Willing to walk the spiral path, even if I don’t know exactly where it’s headed.

Right now, I’m planting seeds. Lots of them. Some are creative. Some are emotional. Some might not sprout for a while, but I’m starting to trust the soil I’m growing in.

Four of Swords: The Sacred Pause

After that first spark comes the exhale. This card is such a necessary reminder: rest isn’t lazy—it’s holy. I’ve been craving silence. Not just quiet around me, but that deep kind of stillness that lets your nervous system, and your chocolate starfish, unclench.

I’m realizing that recovery isn’t just from chaos or heartbreak—it can also come after growth. Even positive shifts can leave us feeling raw. And that’s okay.

Three of Swords: The Ache That Still Echoes

This one hit hard. I didn’t want to admit that my heart is still carrying some shrapnel. Old grief, unspoken disappointment, the ache of letting go (even when it’s right).

But I also know the Three of Swords in the Light Seer’s deck isn’t just about pain. It’s about feeling it to release it. Letting the heart bleed so it can heal in real time. Some wounds don’t disappear, but they stop defining you once they’re fully acknowledged.

Reminds me of a J. Mike Fields post I saw on Facebook the other day, "Resist the urge to make yourself feel better. That is avoidance. Let yourself feel bad, and it will pass."

The Hanged Man: The Soul Surrender

The card that stayed hidden until I looked deeper. And of course, it’s the Hanged Man. The invitation to surrender. To let go of needing answers right now. To lean into the in-between.

This card feels like the real heartbeat of my reading. It’s not about fixing or forcing anything—it’s about seeing differently. About finding the beauty in the pause, and letting my whole perspective shift as I hang suspended in the unknown.

If You’re Here Too...

If you’re also somewhere between grief and growth, ambition and exhaustion—I see you. Maybe we’re not meant to rush this part. Maybe this is the space where something sacred starts to rewire. Where we rest. Where we feel. Where we begin again, slow and soft and true.

Here’s to trusting the process.
Even when it hurts.
Even when it’s quiet.
Even when we’re not sure what’s next.